"two-fold plan"

Had some friends come over to my place-we worked on an art project. It was great fun considering I just abandoned all my interest in arts and crafts after joining work. For about 30 mins into the activity I even considered it as a future career option-maybe when I'm fed up with the corporate life (which won't be too far away).

Part 1 of the "two-fold plan" is to start getting up on time (or early..desperately trying to be ambitious) and do something (too ashamed to mention it) I keep coaxing myself to do but never get around to doing..but really need to do it now for my own good.

Part 2 of the "two-fold plan" is to get focussed about something (sorry, too ashamed to mention this as well)..it's nearly late to do it now but I'm just hoping will be able to achieve something in a few months - either the relief of having done it or the guilt that I was chasing after the wrong thing and that I should move on.

Need to get cracking on the two-fold plan IMMEDIATELY!

saying and annoying

With a conservative granny at home i'm quite used to constantly hearing running commentary about how i'm not as good as her brother's nephew's cousin, who is currently in the U.S studying this or that, or her nephew's cousin's brother who is earning some magnanimous amount, or he/she/it is doing some fancy course, or the recently arrived guest who knows an inkling of me adviced me to study this or that or do some crap in life, all this and more is usually what my granny says to me aside the constant comparison with someone or the other, or finding flaws, like this ridiculous one i hear almost 5 times a week- "your hair is so brown, why do you colour it, beggars have this kind of hair, i can't believe you'll pay to get it done... oh everybody said they liked your hair when you were younger what is this...blah blah blah", all this and some more ridicule.

My dad constantly asks me, right from when i was three, why only eat two chapathis, or two idlis or two dosas! Go Figure!!!!!

My poor mom has given up on my studying habits, she knows the more she forces me the more laid back i'll become. so once in a while she brings up this non-sensical topic of how when i was younger i always scored well, better than my friends and now those same friends score better than me. hmmm i just end up keeping quiet.

My friends and I always like going out for chaat every second day, so my grandfather never understood this phenomenon and everytime they came home he would pass a comment. It drove me up the wall but now when i look back it seems rather funny
my boyfriend is on this unrelentless trip always promising me that he'll make it up to me for all the stupid things he does... but .... i'm still waiting.....

my friend sharanya calls me water slide nose.. i really can't blame her(ha ha)

my close friends think i'm really reserved or in their annoying way of putting it"secretive".. i''l tell them things that they need to know.. otherwise LET ME BE.

all this saying and annoying is one mind game after another but i'm slowly learning to realize that all things said are either out of insecurities or concern all things i get annoyed by are either truly annoying or truly true!

So i finally blogged !!!

yes, me, moi, i fially decided to blog..will try ad make this a regular habit...(he he ya rite).. see the thing is i have two major problems in life...lack of perseverance and a f**king comp that is slower than a snail and believe u me...IT'S SLOW!!!!!! so i will definetly try and blog as much as i can about whatever i can...which actually got me wondering as to why i, me- megha subodh should really blog.. i mean, am i doing it for myself, just to put down all my thoughts in this portal of other anonymous blogs which the world may or may not read ...or am i doing it for myself..well i did some serious thinking about it and i'm not really sure.. i guess this question is like one of those questions whose reply is better left unanswered..maybe somewhere down the line of my blogging spree i may realise,what me blogging really means, maybe i wont..but for me the thrill lies exactly in that.. i may get really bored wid typing out my thoughts just after i've actually thought of it(after a while obviously) or i may get hooked on to this blogging thing like crazy but that's the beauty of this situation... i guess for now i'll jus leave it to the clutches of time and see where this goes....